I am dancing the jig today because this is the first day I have been home all week. A friend and I were talking yesterday and came to the conclusion that May is much more busy than December. I love this season of life we are in but it is no secret that I wish I could have some down time. It is coming though in the form of a trip to the beach at the end of the month. I just have to get to the end of the month!
For this Five on Friday, I started a list of five gift ideas that I would enjoy for Mother's Day but then remembered that I told Chad not to buy me anything for Mother's Day because we just replaced our patio shade- so that was a gift. I love sitting outside on my patio but sadly, I have only done it twice since we got the shade. Plus, we are getting ready to tile our kitchen backsplash and it is costing a little more than I planned (if we decide to purchase what we picked out). Instead of posting gift ideas, I decided to post what I would REALLY like for Mother's Day. It will probably not happen because I don't even think Chad knows I still blog!
For my house to be deep cleaned inside and out. This includes:
- baseboards scrubbed
- light fixtures cleaned
- garage swept and mopped
- front porch pressure washed and furniture cleaned
- all weeds pulled and mulch spread
For my kids to get out of this tattle telling stage. Holy Guacamole! It is bad right now. I thought toddlers and preschoolers did that. We are taking a major step backwards! It seems like they are constantly at one another's throat. I know this is part of life but it gets on my last nerve. I wish they would realize that they are lucky to have a sibling- I don't have a sibling and the older I get, the more I miss that companionship.
To be noticed . Chad, bless his heart, is not Mr. Romantic. In fact, he is the polar opposite of me. He rarely talks (heaven forbid he tells me how he feels). I feel like there are days when we barely say a couple of sentences to one another. Yesterday, in the middle of a conflict with Caylee, he told me he liked my shorts. I was flabbergasted and flattered by the compliment- even if the shorts did come from Target. I appreciate the comment but was honestly caught off guard. I know my husband loves me. He shows it daily by working fourteen plus hours so that I don't have to.
To be appreciated. Moms do a lot. There is no "time off". I would love to hear "I appreciate you for making sure my laundry is clean. I appreciate you for taking me to baseball. I appreciate you for ____________." One of our biggest struggles as a family is mealtime. I try my best to have a decent meal on the table most nights. It seems like all I hear is complaining. Someone doesn't like this. I am constantly trying to come up with meals everyone will eat. I get tired of cooking the same old same old all the time. It would be nice to be able to fix a meal without conflict.
To find some sort of balance. I am reading Candace Bure's book Balancing It All and it is really hitting home. I feel out of balance. I know it is the season that I am in. I just can't seem to find a balance of housework, child rearing, being a wife, friend, and daughter. It is my hope that once school is out, I can reevaluate things and reprioritize.
After coming back to this post before hitting publish, I feel like it somewhat comes across as complaining on what is wrong in my life. That is not my intent. I think it is just where I am right now and I want this blog to be a journal of my life and be real and truthful. I am keeping it real and truthful. I am thankful and eternally grateful for what I do have. I know there are women out there who would love to be celebrating Mother's Day with their mom or women who would love to become a mother but due to different reasons they can't. My heart goes out to you. I pray that you each will find comfort today and everyday.